feeling really depressed now... its raining outside and its a reflection of my feelings...sometimes i just feel so alone...maybe thats what it is... i am alone...i feel like crying and for no reason at all...just pure depression...i just feel so sad and lonely...is there anyone who will understand without having to speak out??? i am really sad and i am all alone...dont even ask why cos i will have no answer...maybe just a mood swing... i dont know how to express it...and what with the exam pressure...i am at lost of what to do and what to say... makes me remember the song soledad...

i am going to blog again...yeah again...hahaha...i guess i am now online more than ever, even though it is my exam period...not that i could not be bothered to study by tomorrow is ICT examination and i am really bad at it...dont ask me why then i chose it in the first place, i though it was fun, how was i to know that it is so boring...so much things to memorise...i might as well take biology, it was worse than biology...at least that has less things to remember... even though it is still boring... in ICT, there is no interesting new technology things to learn, but just outdated data (information without meaning---thats the defination of data...pretty true i guess) to remember... honestly tell me, for an exam still using floppy disk to store data, and having teachers might not even accepting blu-ray DVD (storage of at least 20G per disk) as a way to back up data shows the ignorance of the subject...ICT is fast pace and advanced and ever-changing, so what if we memorise the exact defination of something, who knows when nobody is ever going to use it again...in the actual world of ICT, tell me which professional will be able to tell you the exact defination of data, information and knowlege...dun tell me it is the basic...in the real world, no one cares about definations...so then, why trouble the students to remember information that are basically useless? Do they like to tortue us? Also, the answer to the marking scheme is not the absolute answer...and many are not even correct...so what right do they have to mark us? wow i guess i got a bit carried away huh...but what i said was true...

oh i had maths C2 exam today...and i want to say THANK YOU MRS CHIA, YOU ARE THE BEST AMATHS TEACHER EVER...I LOVE YOU...yeah...thanks to her...

oh i should get back to my revision... i just want to say, yiou, you are a great friend...thanks for your advice...i love you...and i will keep my promise...

Okay, I decided to post again. I said hopefuly the last, not definitly the last before the end of exams.



Did physics practical on wednesday, and that marks the start of my exams, it was okay, i guess, but not very sure... all i can say is that i was pretty dumb, not knowing that the smaller particals are supposed to flow faster than the bigger particals...it was not, my fault though, the sample A did flow slower than the sample B, its true, my sample A flows 9 something seconds while my sample B really took 8 something secomds to flow down the tube...I repeated the readings so many times, it just came out with the same results, what am i suppose to do? Really wasnt my fault...still, i hope i wont have to much mark deducted because of that.

I have maths C2 on Monday, ICT on Tuesday (i seems to be really bad at it, no matter how hard i try), chinese on wednesday and then 1 and 1/2 week free to revise for exam in june...

and then in august, my darling friends in sg, i will see you all again...really really miss you all...please dont forget me...

oh and i got to know a brother in the chatroom, okay dun go on about how unsafe it is, i know, but he seemed to be really nice and we chatted on the phone, i smsed him and he called me... the surpring thing is the chatroom is qq's, and he is in uk too, such a coincidence, but our cities are a bit far away...anyways, he seems to be a nice brother...

exams

okay i am going to post for the last time before moi exams...hopefully...really bored now cos there is nothing to do now in the morning register. such a waste of 40 mins...could be sleeping...haiz...really bored...the teacher is not here yet and its wet and gloomy day...it was like this for the past few days...i guess i am already used to it...but its still depressing...

anyways mum is here and that means better food and someone to take care of me... i miss her and dad so much...

it also means that exams are coming... really nervous now...first exam on wednesday... wish me luck...

My dear friends in singapore... results are out i suppose... how was it?

random stuff

very long time havent blog... really busy nowadays... AS exams around the corner and i am stressed... i will do well and show all the people who dares to look down and think I would not make it, I am going to show them what I can do and is determined to do. I WILL GET As!!!

Grace, i am touched by that... i miss you too really really really do... remember the {1/2 heart}...

sorry cat i know i very long didnt blog... but you dont have exams on your doorstep do you?

oh i went 2 watch Mary Poppins in the Prince Edward Theater sometime ago cant really remember when in april i think...in london... came back at midnight... really nice show... though i have to say... the actors and actress is not very good... but its great nontheless... the amazing thing is that the stage can move... the main scene is in the house but the house can move! really amazing prop... i look so real too with real rooms and doors...a nice show... definitely recommand it...

anyways...mum is coming on this saturday so i wont be a boarder anymore...hahaha...cant wait...